catch up

It is long time. Many things did happen from last year. It is true for me to say my life was down and down and down after I return to Japan last year.

After my friend pass from life I go crazy little bit. Maybe a lot to be true.

Too much drink and soft drugs and girls. So many girls. Really to use English word I was giant slut many months. In that time really I do not care for live or die. Maybe then I want die like my friend.

Many reason die did not happen. The dark place find some light and this broken girl come out dirty and tired and sick and little bit more wise maybe.

So. With friends little bit help and inside me help a lot I decide life must have change.

It is more easy to write new and change life in some list. List is here.

- returned to Australia (Toshiko agree she stay one more year in Sydney office)

- Tosh take me back (she love me more than I love me)

- serious talk with Tosh about who we are inside (we talk and cry and accept new style)

- back to running once more

- healthy eat once more

- I am cooker for our home

- I do not make complain of Toshiko long work time (I do not like but accept it is she must)

- Toshiko do not complain my some time sex with some girls (Tosh do not like but accept it is me must)

- make beautiful home I am responsible (not housewife but little bit this way is)

- shopping I am responsible (same)

- I must remember take the medicine

- I begin study English once more (more serious now – begin two week before)

I return short time before to Sydney. Life so different now with Toshiko. We find the heart once more. We find the comfortable once more. We find the sex once more. It is like we are truly adult now together. Life have more sweet and more interesting and more deep love.

Tosh was afraid she will lose me to bad life. I was afraid I lose me to bad life.

Now it is new life. This new time can have different look of it.

Oh promise promise promise I study hard the English lesson with old class and friends. It will have improve in time.

Beautiful friends visit here. In best English I write. I love you very much.

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

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