running with peace

When you are running it is possible the world can go away little bit for a while. I love the world really I love it so much. Mostly.

This week something was changed. If you visit here for a while maybe you know every morning I will run. Sometimes it will be one hour and sometimes it is 2 hours. It can be more but not so much. But. Always I run. For exercise and for joy.

I run 6am or 7am. How I feel is when I begin. The normal day is walk from my flat to nearby the park called Botanical Gardens. Then jog little bit then run and some times jog for some resting. I run alone because Tosh will not run for exercise. She is the gym girl. When running some same people will be running at that time. We have the smile when we pass or we say hello and always moving.

This week some new people do the running and jogging along the path. They are men. Fine. Men also do run every day and some times say hello when we are going past each other. No. This week the new men arrive. Maybe there are three. They do not run together but they all begin this week.

These new men do not say hello when we are passing each other. These men run beside and talk one by one. One man he always smile to me and always ask questions. ‘Where are you from?’, ‘Do you come here every day?’ and saying things ‘You are so beautiful” and ‘Lets go for coffee’ and ‘Your body is amazing’.

Shit! This is the time I can relax. It is time for thinking and enjoying the pretty, warm day. I tell these men I have no interest and please go away. They do not know I am gay and I do not say. This is not information for strangers if I do not wish to say. All of this week these men one by one do buzz in my ear like the mosquito or the summer fly.

These men believe they are cool guy. They have the fit body and the expensive running clothes. But. They are stupid men. Maybe in their mind I am cute little Japan girl so sweet and gentle will like the big and strong man. They do not know how I grow up. They do not know I am sweet girl some times and other times very sour girl. They do not know my history is fill with many colors light and dark. I tell them many times I have no interest. So. This morning they learn some hard lesson. This morning the sweet little Japan girl did stop running. She stand before the stupid man and shouting. ‘I do not like you. Do not talk to me. Fuck off!’ He smile to me and begin to talk once more. Once more I shout ‘fuck off!’. He did.

I say same to the other two men. Number two man told me ‘Calm down’ and he put the hand on my shoulder. I hit him with the fist on the nose. He did take his hand from my shoulder to wipe the blood away from his nose.

These stupid man will not bother me any more I think. In my life I love peace and live in nature. I am kind to people. It is the way of peaceful life. But. I use the American expression for one special rule in my life. Do not fuck with me. It is reasonable yes? I also think so.

After the men is gone I once more enjoy the peaceful running time. Smile the passing by people, say hello. Today is sunny and warm and the sound can reach me from ferries on the harbor and patpatpat from my feet on the running path. This is so pretty by the water.

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

busy busy busy

Deep bow. It has been a long time I did not write. I have been so busy busy busy every day. No time for this long writing only haiku in the other blog.

Yes. The weekend spend with Toshiko it was WOW!!! So gentle so fun so perfect. When I have more time for it I will write all. Or maybe not all. But. Almost all. *giggle*

This week I did these things:

special running for back home charity (I did run 2 days only stop for short rests)

begin new class for massage therapy

English lessons two times

cooking lesson for cook local food recipes

dance party for gay pride and late night with naughty girl I meet there

meetup with friend visit from back home and shopping shopping shopping

walk the Sydney Harbor Bridge up to top with Japan friend

some work for back home project I commit last year

many many other little jobs

Yes I do not do the job as Toshiko does. But. My life can be full up in some weeks. ^_^

After the massage therapy course is finish after months I may become the part time massage therapist. Teacher told me I have “the touch”. She told me it is natural or it is not natural. She told me for me it is natural.

My heart is singing so sweet and happy all the day. Tosh is very happy I do this. She sometimes worry I have no work I may be so bored. Also when I must practice the massage she is my model. She is very very happy. I make the special extra massage only for her. Happyhappyhappy! *giggle*

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

early celebration

Last year was so terrible year for Tosh and for me.

I became the wild animal for while. It was freedom in some way and pain also in some way.

But. For Toshiko it was torture year. She move to a new country. She must learn many new things. Then. Her lover, me, desert her and she is alone. She does not know will I return and am I ok. The one she loves is out of control and out of contact and poor Toshiko, she cannot leave her work. And she will not know where to begin to search for me.

I return to her and we are together once more. But. How can I ever say sorry. When I stopped my crazy life last year to return Tosh took me back with no angry words. She only gave her love to me like always. We are adult. We know what is strong and what is weak in each other it is true. We both accept. But. Tosh has more to accept. My heart is true in love to Toshiko. But. I am ill in some way and from time to time I will be the naughty girl. We talk about it. We make the compromise. I accept she will work too many hours. It is hard for normal life when she work 60 or 70 hours and more some times. She accept I will flirt the girls and share my body from time to time. We have love deep and pure like the mountain stream. We will be old woman together one day. This will be.

So. This weekend I steal my Tosh away from the work. In this country there is the day for love it is Valentines Day. But. It is 14th. Toshiko will work of course and late I do not maybe even eat the dinner with her that night. So. This weekend I steal my sweetheart.

I make the booking for the number one beautiful place in a place it is called Blue Mountains nearby Sydney. I make the booking in hotel it is most beautiful and most romantic in all that area. We may see the giant view from the window of our room. We have the number one suite. Also I book the special car with the driver for two days can take us to everywhere is beautiful. Best food, best wine, best views. All for my precious Toshiko who love me much more than I can ever deserve.

No cellphone, no ipad, no computer. One weekend. Two of us alone in the paradise. This is thank you and to show my love for the most kind soul in all the world, my Toshiko.

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

normal life almost returned

Today Toshiko is out of the bed. She is having the cough little bit and very very tired. But. She can smile to me. It is good.

Oh the naughty nurse costume was so popular! I do not wear the panties so Tosh may see the little bottom peek out. She is laughing when I walk inside the bedroom first time I wear it. Pretend listen to the heart she is laughing little bit also. Maybe this nurse is healing nurse after all!! *giggle*

Running this morning is short only one hour. The weather is ok only have some clouds and no rain. Last week I buy new running clothes and many colors. I like the tight clothes best. They can hold all of my body like it is skin. The little backpack can fit inside the warming up clothes so light and my money and cellphone and keys and little towel.

At 6am the air has the smell of fresh and little bit sour the harbor water. The little wind can blow the trees. I love very much that sound. The ferries blow the horn and not many cars can hear so early. Some people I see every day also running by the water. We little bit wave or move the head say hello. Some times naughty Yumi enjoys to run behind the girls with the nice bottom moving in front of my eyes. Some times they see me look. Some times they smile to me also. I like this time.

The heart may rest when the body is moving. Oh yes of course it is working so hard. But. The heart is born to work. It is happy most when it is working. You wish to make the heart unhappy then do not work it. In life a thing is unhappy if it cannot be what it is born to be. The heart is not working it may hurt you because you make the unhappy feeling inside the heart. Live together the right way both will have so much happiness. This I believe.

Naughty Tosh is sitting with work papers reading. She must be resting. But. Maybe she is happy. I do not scold her. Tosh and papers is like my body and running. Together they are finding the peaceful life.

I must leave now. There is food in the market. It is waiting for me. I can see when I visit there all of the vegetables shining so bright do their best so that I will choose them. Today I will choose the most happy vegetable to feed my Toshiko. And the healthy fish to join them.

Happy day to you!

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

Toshiko may come to home

It is very good news. The hospital call me and Tosh may come to home today. I may go to bring her at 3pm.

The sickness is a cold. But. They called influenza. It is serious more than cold. Only need is rest and sleep. Inside our home Toshiko can enjoy both of them. It is my loving duty. Salute. *giggle*

I have the special surprise for my Tosh. In this morning after the running and tea and shower I went to special costume shop. In there I rent the costume of nurse. In the bill it has written “1 – Naughty Nurse costume and accessories”. Accessories is only one thing it is the thing for put in the ears to listen the heart sound. After I bring back my Tosh and put her in the bed I can change the street clothes and then I am the “Naughty Nurse with accessories”. She will have so big smile. ^_^

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

tonight the hospital for Toshiko

In the afternoon today I take Toshiko to the doctor for visit. It is only very very nearby walk only 2 minutes.

The doctor examine Tosh and he told us she must go into the hospital for visit for night time watching. He said he will order the ambulance. Toshiko said no taxi will do.

So I take Tosh to our home she can sit and I gather the clothes for sleep. Really it is tshirt and soft sweater and long gym pants. We do never wear the clothes for sleep. Also I gather all things needing for over night staying. Also I phone taxi.

Now it is almost 2am. Toshiko is sleeping in the hospital. I stay by her tonight.

In this moment I have went outside for smoke the cigarette and some writing to you with ipad. So useful. I may read and writing also.

In the hospital the doctor saw Tosh and give the medicine. He said it is virus only. But. He wish to be careful. If the hot body is cool down in the morning we may go home. I call the boss of Tosh already for tell him she do not go in the office tomorrow.

I cannot so easy sleep. My heart is afraid like the children in a forest hear the monster inside the trees. Hospital and me is enemy. Tomorrow maybe we become friend. When Toshiko may go home.

Now I take a walk inside the hospital garden. It is very quiet in this time. Maybe after can sleep. Tomorrow I must be the nurse of my dear Toshi.

Yes and to kind bloohmoon thank you for your care. Love.

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi

real

Tosh is sick today.

Sunday morning is always same. At six I go out from the bed. Go to washroom. Take the washed running clothes to put on. Skin protect cream over the body. Go for running. Running maybe two hours maybe one hour. Buy the coffee for have rest. Back to home to shower the sweat body. Read and rest or work or Internet for write. Sunday Toshiko will sleep up to maybe 11 or 12. It is the special sleep day for her.

Today I return. After shower I take the little fruit breakfast and ipad in bedroom for read the book. It is my way. Sit the comfortable one seat sofa and reading and relax can hear the breathing of my Tosh. My heart can so easy relax this way. In this way I am so close with my girl.

But. Today I eat little bit fruit and begin the reading and I hear Tosh breathing sound is not so good. It is some high sound like the sound of bird singing with no song. On the bed I can have the feeling she is so warm. Touch the face it is hot under my hand. So. I bring the face towel have some water on it. Maybe it can help. Tosh open the eyes little bit I can see she have the sad look. My girl is so sick. Now she begin the shake like it is so cold. But. It is not so cold. Already it is maybe over 20 degree. She pull the blanket so close. After little while she is push the blanket off her body. Now she feel so hot. I lay the blanket on to her body once more. She push and I put back.

After maybe 30 minutes she is sleeping once more her body can relax. But. She still has the hot face and body. I go to Internet see what is the best look after way for this sickness. Sleep and water and rest and maybe some medicine for body pain if have. Oh Toshiko already prepare the special box for sickness. Inside it has many things. Inside it has pills for many sickness and bandage and other things for little accident. So. I take out the pills for pain. There I prepare by our bed the pills and the cup with water. After Tosh wake up I will give for her the pills.

I discover she is sick at maybe 8.30 and now is 10am. The breathing sound she makes still is not so good. I touch her she still is so hot have the sickness smell. But. She has sleep. If lunch time is come and she still has sleep I must wake her see if she can eat some little bit food. If the afternoon is come and still she is so hot I take her to the doctor nearby.

Really it is only some not so serious cold I think. Rest maybe is enough.

Toshiko and me we live the simple life. She works very hard in her work. I work in keep fit and take care the home and some work I do for back home company. We eat the evening food I prepare and we talk and we see the movies some times and we enjoy the sex. It is simple life for two people in love.

But. Toshiko is sick it makes me so afraid. It is so real. In my life the people I did love did die. My mother, my first real love and last year my good friend. I know it is so stupid. I know it does not always must be this way. But. I am so afraid. Yes it is so selfish feel this way. It is not me has the sickness. It is Toshiko. She must be the one for attention not myself. But it is hard.

So. I sit here for writing this. Next I look to Tosh once more. Then. Read some more of my book. And I worry. And I think in my mind do not die, do not die, do not die. You can see how stupid I am. Stupid Yumi always think sick will become die. I pray to the sunshine and the earth. Maybe it can help.

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愛の生活 – Ai no seikatsu – love life

Later, Yumi